Bradford
Janet’s health was certainly better
living in Castle Carrock, she had been retired from the Health Service and she
was still unable to work or to walk any distance. She enrolled for a life
drawing class at the local art school but was unable to make her own way there
and I had to be on hand to help. She suffered, especially at that time, from
the fatigue associated with MS and spent most afternoons in bed, resting.
She also continued to have relapses and
with each relapse the floor was lowered, her walking worsened and she was less
able to manage unaided.
Nevertheless she was also better, in the
sense that she was more relaxed and happier. Although that might just had
something to do with the anger management counselling making me an easier
person to live with.
But she was better. The Bishop Ian
Harland had taken sabbatical leave and whist he was away visiting our partner
Diocese it was made clear to me that on his return I would be offered another
job. This was partly because I suppose there was the feeling that I was being
wasted in a job that was, as the bishop had said, too small for me. But also
the Diocese was feeling the effects of the reductions in Church Commissioners
support and a decline in giving. There simply was not the money to continue to
pay for clergy in posts such as mine which had been identified as
supernumerary.
I saw the Bradford job advertised and
because I had a strong feeling that I knew which parish would be offered to me,
I applied. This was in part because I had received a delegation from the Parish
asking me to be their Vicar and in part because I had a feeling that it could
well be my last job.
Previous Vicars had either stayed for
years or died in office and I just wanted to see whether as a previous
Archbishop’s Appointments Secretary had intimated to me, a residentiary canonry
in an urban Cathedral like Bradford could well be mine one day.
So I applied. I was shortlisted and
appointed. During the time when I was preparing to leave Castle Carrock and
getting ready for the move, our son and two of our daughters travelled with
Janet and I to see what we were getting ourselves into. All three of them
agreed that and told me clearly about their misgivings based on meeting the
Provost. Each of them confided to Janet that they were uneasy about the move
and that I might be getting myself into a situation where I would not be happy.
They were of course right. But the
attraction was irresistible. If moving to Newcastle had been like jumping on to
a moving train and the move to Castle Carrock, stepping into a rural idyll, the
move to Bradford was like falling into the well at the world’s end.
In my first parish which I have
mentioned already but will discuss further I knew from the moment I was licensed
and installed that it had been a mistake. On the first night in the new house
Janet and I discussed in all seriousness how soon I could reasonably move
without it impacting unfavourably on my career. And this before the house
collapsed triggering my move to Newcastle.
Bradford was somewhat different. At
first I thought that I had been given a role which would free me to develop
many of my own interests. I had joked with friends that it was a ‘missionary
position in the City Centre’ Writing and Poetry were high on the list of things
that I wanted to pursue.
But it was not to be. The Cathedral did
not, as Prince Philip asked me at the Royal Maundy service, operate a canon in
residence system. I had replaced an outgoing canon precentor but at the same time
the cathedral curate had left, and I was asked to become canon pastor, a title
I rejected as sounding too much like an Italian supper dish.
So I was called Vice-Provost.
However, because I assumed many of the
duties of the outgoing curate, it seemed to me that many members of the
congregation seemed to think that I was in fact the new curate.
Bradford Cathedral had for much of its
life been run by its Provosts rather like the old fashioned evangelical parish
church it had once been.
There
was a sense that the Provost was the Vicar and the canons his curates.
As my work consultant observed it is the
only model of ministry that the Church of England recognises and it was clear
that in the Diocese there was little time for the canons; as another clergyman
asked me on one occasion, could he speak to the boss?
My working day began at 7 00 am and
often lasted until ten or eleven at night. The demands were insistent and I
realised over the four years that I was becoming very tired and increasingly uncreative.
On top of the pastoral demands of the
cure of souls of the parish and congregation I was asked to take lead
responsibility for a project involving the acquisition of a significant
building in Foster Square which lies beneath the Cathedral.
Much has been said and written about
this initiative which in time, after it was chosen by the Millennium Commission
as a Millennium Project, acquired at first national interest and then later
national notoriety.
After the hard work was completed, and
in confidence that the vision would be realised, I published the following in
the magazine of The Bible Society: Transmissions.
In
June 2000 the National Millennium Faith Experience will open at Bradford
Cathedral. Housed in a former post office with a bridge over to the cathedral,
this multi-million pound project represents a real journey of faith.
Like
all journeys, as we have arrived at an ending with the turn of the century and
the opening of the National Millennium Faith Experience (NMFE), we find that we
have arrived at a new beginning. So what of that journey and where has it taken
us?
NMFE
at Bradford Cathedral is a project that is principally funded by the Millennium
Commission with support from other key funders. Built in a former post office,
it will comprise a local authority training facility, a restaurant, shops and a
visitor attraction with three galleries (of which more later).
A
1995 report into the life and governance of the cathedrals of the Church of
England aimed to effect considerable change. In its critical appraisal of
Anglican cathedral life it has helped cathedrals to see themselves more clearly
and identify what belongs to their mission.
Hidden
away in the statistics in the appendices of the report was the revealing fact
that Bradford was at the bottom of the league table as far as visitor numbers
were concerned.
The
Cathedral’s Education and Development Officer, Caroline Moore has over the
years nurtured a dream that it might one day prove possible to develop a centre
where the city could interpret itself and its history in relation to some of
the themes which are emerging in the new realities of contemporary life. This
vision she had tentatively entitled “The Observatory of Bradford Life”, a
reference to Abraham Sharp, the eighteenth-century astronomer who lived in
Horton Hall, Bradford.
We
reasoned that if we could attract more visitors to the Cathedral, we would be
advancing our mission as a place of pilgrimage, and helping people discover
their own spiritual realities as they eavesdropped on the on-going life of an
urban cathedral. More practically, we could also address the need for a third
income stream alongside congregational giving and our Church Commissioners
Section 31 grant.
More
visitors would allow us to develop the educational and interpretive role of the
cathedral. We define this as presenting Jesus in and to a city where cultures
collide, diverse faiths are practised and poverty in all its manifestations is
to be seen etched deeply into people’s faces.
The
sale of the former post office sited at the foot of the cathedral hill offered
an ideal opportunity. A magnificent Grade II listed building, it is rumoured
that it was built expressly to obscure the view of the cathedral from the city
centre!
In
1996, with the support of colleagues, I began to make enquiries about whether
the cathedral could acquire the building for our own purposes. So the journey
began.
From
start to finish this has been a journey of faith, and whilst the money has been
raised and the concrete poured, a number of theological questions have
arisen.
The
first concerns money. At an early stage a member of the congregation took a
very strong stand about the fact that the money we were spending was lottery
money. In fact, he felt that he could no longer worship at the cathedral
because he saw the use of proceeds from the lottery as inappropriate for a
religious organisation.
My
view is that money is ethically neutral and only finds moral value when it is
spent. Applying lottery money to the purposes for which we had in mind meant
that there would be a moral “good”.
The
benefits are considerable. We have contributed to the regeneration of the city
centre in a very positive way. We have created jobs and training opportunities.
We have supported local businesses, and, in the end product, we have made a
bold and inspiring statement that both arises out of and speaks to our
post-modern environment. We have left our “statement” much as the Victorians
left theirs.
Secondly,
multi-faith Bradford reminds us that religion plays a central role in social,
political and economic events, as well as in the lives of individuals and
communities. People need opportunities to reflect upon and understand religious
traditions, issues, questions and values (sometimes characterised as the search
for ultimate meaning or the answer to spiritual questions). NMFE will offer
such an opportunity.
Thirdly,
the “spiritual” is almost always engaged through the concrete and practical. In
this way, ordinary, everyday materials, events and experiences become the basis
for spiritual enrichment. As an example, holy communion, which lies at the
heart of the Christian Church’s spirituality, is an activity, involving the
taking, blessing, breaking and sharing of bread and wine. Through this activity
the presence of Jesus Christ is realised in the life of the Christian
community. Within the visitor attraction, examples of other faith communities
actualising their beliefs will be presented.
When
I first arrived in Bradford, each time I left the cathedral I was greeted by a
large billboard poster that exhorted me to read the Koran, “The Final
Revelation”.
Bradford
is a large, ethnically and culturally diverse city. Under the leadership of
Bishop David, the Anglican Church has built excellent relationships with the
community leaders. With the help of our Interfaith Adviser, a meeting was
arranged for the various communities to hear about our plans and to visit the
proposed site.
The
original design concept proposed by Past Forward, designers of York’s Jorvick
Viking Centre, began with the historic journey from the planting of the
preaching cross by the broad-ford (Bradford) to late twentieth century
multi-faith Bradford.
Debate
about this proposal resulted in two quite clear principles being established
with the agreement of the faith leaders represented at this first meeting.
Firstly,
that each faith would be robustly presented in a form which acknowledged and
respected the integrity of all faiths. Secondly, that we would seek to avoid a
presentation that caused Christian visitors to ask “Is this how my story ends?”
and for other faith visitors to wonder “What happened to the rest of my story?”
At
the heart of the attraction in a central gallery, building on Caroline Moore’s
Observatory idea, visitors will meet significant figures from Bradford’s past
who have made their contributions to literature, art, music, science, commerce
and social reform on a national or international stage.
On
either side of this gallery will be two further galleries; one concerned with
faith and the other, Digital City, with allowing contemporary visitors to
record their contributions to a developing archive. This living history book
will record the social archaeology of the twenty-first century. The three
galleries of NMFE will provide insights into three key areas where the life of
faith communities has enriched the life of the wider community.
At
the end of the first millennium Wulfstan, Archbishop of York suggested that the
significant spiritual question for his contemporaries was one of identity: “Who
am I?”
The
design of the exhibition has been fraught with the implicit question about what
represents the fundamental spiritual question for a society on the cusp of a
new millennium.
Who
am I? Where am I from? What will become of me?
These
are real questions for people as postmodernism casts doubt on the value of the
meta-narrative. It is in response to this agenda that the three galleries which
make up the National Millennium Faith Experience will explore:
• aspects
of faith, in the context of Bradford as an international city, leading to the
question of identity: who am I?
• the
triumph of social imagination through the achievements of individuals as they
are related to significant social developments, leading to the question: what
is my history?
• the
contemporary fascination with religions as myths of origin and personal
significance. Visitors will be invited to make their millennium mark, and, as
their stories are collated and archived they will be seen as part of the on-going
“story of faith”, leading to the question of ultimate value: what will become
of me?
As
part of the superb design solution for the project, a bridge was built to span
the chasm between the cathedral and the developing NMFE centre. Crossing that
bridge for the first time, I felt that the journey was truly well under way. We
are near the end; the beginning of the journey is in sight…
This was, in hindsight a positive take
on an experience and a time in my life which raised huge questions.
In addition to the pastoral care of the
congregation and parish, chaplaining the Boys Brigade, including being away
under canvas at the annual camp, organising the Cathedral’s education
programme, initiating a new series of lectures in the Cathedral, taking
communion, visiting, conducting baptisms, weddings and funerals, I became the
project champion for the Millennium Project which included regular meetings and
negotiations with the Millennium commission. For some reason the staff of the
commission always seemed to think that they needed to play hardball.
On one occasion having been summoned to
a meeting in London I was seated opposite four commission staff, realising the
oppositional nature of the seating arrangement, they began by apologising, ‘we
didn’t intend to intimidate you’, was the opening gambit of the Chair. ‘It
would take more than you four to intimidate me’ I responded in an opening
gambit that set the tone for the meeting.
Health became an issue again when we
were in Bradford Janet was diagnosed with Breast Cancer, the insidious disease
which had killed my Mother.
I wrote this poem whilst watching her
receive her Radiotherapy Treatment on a public video screen in the Leeds hospital
where she was receiving treatment, once a day for three weeks.
Your
endurance
is
legendary, arms
outstretched
as if
to
embrace this
healing
ray or ray of death
whatever
the hell it is
only
time will tell
How
you as a target
of
their concern
bear
your breasts
patiently
in dignified
suffering
A
crucified Madonna
dying
a little each day
giving
life
to
those you love
Despite this the work did not stop, on
one occasion I visited her at five thirty in the morning in hospital before
catching a train to London for a meeting with the Millennium Commission.
The house we lived in was located in a
corner of the church yard which a hundred years before had been closed because
of the frequent outbreaks of cholera and typhoid in the town and in order to
reduce the further spread of disease. In our corner of the churchyard was the
site of the burial pit where the bodies of children, only 30% of children born
to textile workers reached the age of fifteen, were buried.
If Janet was to recover her health in
Castle Carrock then here in Bradford she was to experience further setbacks.
During this busy time I managed to negotiate a ‘Sabbatical’ involving a trip to
our American partner church in Roanoke. Janet was out of hospital and
recovering from her operation and declared fit to travel by the consultant.
Before we reached Roanoke, fortuitously
while staying with friends in Virginia Beach, Janet experienced a Deep Vein
Thrombosis and was hospitalised for two weeks, I journeyed to Roanoke for a
preaching engagement alone, leaving Janet in the care of our friends Jo and Mike
Sweeney.
When we returned to Bradford I had been
replaced as Project Champion by the Provosts appointee.
But it was not just Janet’s health which
suffered in Bradford, my own health deteriorated with recurrent bouts of
Sciatica, dramatic nose bleeds and a recurrence of the depression which has
always been a companion of mine.
But the most dramatic moment came when
our seventeen year old son William was taken away by Ambulance with Meningitis.
For twenty four hours he was desperately ill and we could only watch and pray.
As the Ambulance drove out of the Close with blue lights and sirens I fell to
my knees in the hallway of the house and I cursed a God who could allow this to
happen.
On reflection I began to realise that it
was impossible to live a healthy life in a Graveyard and I resolved to leave
the Cathedral as soon as was humanly possible.
When I discussed my decision with the
bishop I pointed out that the job had taken all my pastoral skill, all the
wisdom I had accumulated in my thirty years since Ordination and all my
management expertise and I was exhausted.
The bishop agreed to release me and once
again I entered job search mode.
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